The time bomb went ticking away the moment I clicked connect. The grumpy cpu had gathered a substantial amount of horsepower. The horses always appeared with a red exclaimation and then introduced themselves as trojans. Within moments all went black, soon to be followed up with varieties of vulgarities and hand signals each time it happened. It was not before this new set of computer sits before me that the 2.5 years of fustrations have finally come to a halt. The time bomb was a strong deterence for me to even log on to clear my emails. So I turned to clearing my mails from the letterbox. The May issue of Courts promotion brochure had laid inside for almost a month. The unintented act of browsing through the catalogue soon led me to the nearest Courts store, and for being unemployed, this only means I need to clear my IPPT with a Gold next month for the subsidy.
Delirious with the widened screen and the unfamiliar Vista format, I spent hours clicking, and as I opened my "favourites" folder, dust blew in my face and there I saw the mouldy words buried under algaes, "AMBiVALEncE in A LABYRinTH". There I read the past events of the boy whose frequencies I could not synchronise with at times. The 2 years gap has been vindicated, I thought.
In the past I strived to be a leader of life. But come to think of it, I am being unconsiously led by life instead. In the past the paths were clear ahead, even though distant, they ended with a stream of hopeful beams. However the paths seemed to take on winding ways with hardly any direction signs.
I browsed a few other blogs I used to visit years back. Most of them are inactive while some are still well maintained, as ever. Impressed with how some friends are displaying their days with pride, the feeling curve took a downturn to reach a point of melancholy.
I should stop here, to take a look at my surroundings.
Yes, my accounting notes are near me. There is a paper in 4 more days.
